This is going to be a huge shock to me, I have been working non stop since I was 16 so the thought of being un-employed and not receiving a weekly wage absolutely terrifies me!
I think Cameron is excited about the next stage, and supporting us as a family while I am at home with bubs, that is fantastic but I am having a bit more of a difficult time adjusting to it. I am such an independent person and the thought of 'relying' on someone, even though I know it's not really relying but thats the only word I could think of, it really scares me.
The fact that I will be relying on Cameron to give me money, which I know he will do so happily, I guess I just never thought I'd be in that position, silly I know, but I pride myself on having worked and studied damn hard for everything I have, I have never asked anything of anyone, and it scares me that that is all about to change.
I was planning on working until the end of August, but due to my increasing blood pressure, and strong family history of pre-eclempsia which almost guarantees I will be going down that path, I have been asked to finish earlier.
Cameron wanted me to finish at the end of June, but that was just out of the question, I am going to go insane as it is, I am not the sort of person to sit around and do nothing.
At least I will still be studying, albeit one subject, but something to keep my brain active!
Enough about that!
Pregnancy wise apart from my blood pressure and the normal pregnancy ailments:
- Hip Pain
- Back Pain
- Reflux and heart burn
Everyting is going well, that was yesterday until I found my first two stretch marks! I have been using Bio Oil, apricot oil and Palmers Stretchmark Butter but it appears I have succumb to them! Oh well if that is the worst thing that happens I am doing well.
Bubs is generally quiet and laid back, doesn't like to expend to much energy, don't get me wrong I feel movement each day but not constantly.
However the last couple days bubs has been really active which I am loving, it is amazing to sit on the lounge with my feet up and watch my belly move as bubs is having fun wiggling around inside of me.
I am starting to relax into and really enjoy this whole experience, which I am so relieved about. It is just such an amazing time, however with each appointment I go to I am expecting to be told what are you doing here, you're not pregnant.
The whole experience sometimes just feels so surreal and I sometimes struggle to get my head around the enormity of it.
I cannot believe that next Friday we are having our 3d/4d scan! I can't wait to see our precious bundle again!
It is also so surreal that most likely the next time we see our bubs after the scan will be when s/he is in our arms! Only 12w 4d until my due date! My goodness time is flying!
That is however unless I have to have a growth scan as according to fundal height I am measuring 4 weeks ahead. However I am not to concerned about that as I know it is not the most accurate measurement. If I continue to measure ahead I think they want to do a scan to check bubs size.
That would explain why in the two weeks leading up to my last appointment I was feeling so huge and stretched, like I was going to pop, I grew 6cm in two weeks!
Well it is now 7:00am on Sunday morning and I am wide awake! I think I might go and have a shower and some brekky, I am hungry already!
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